This has been a rough week and it is only Wednesday :/
I switched to decaf coffee at the beginning of February.
I did it pretty gradually adding in more and more decaf coffee to my caf coffee until it was all decaf. That didn't suck too bad.
I have done this in the past and those first two days of no caffeine were MIS-ER-ABLE. I was a lump. I had no energy. No light. No focus. I was one sad panda.
But, I got through it.
And this time around it wasn't so bad. I didn't want to die, so that was cool.
But, my friends.
There is one thing I am leaving out. This time. Ohhh this time. I was like, you know what is okay?
Some dark chocolate.
I decided this right around V-day figuring it was apropos to embrace the delightful buzz of 80%+ dark chocolate.
Yes. I know. Chocolate has caffeine.
And OH YES. My body loved it.
My brain was so super happy. I'd have moments of OH MI GAWD I can be so productive! Which FEELS great in the moment, but isn't really helping my body for the long term.
Now is time to focus in on the long term. I want to get my body to a place where it isn't so dependent on stimulants to feel ammazeballs. I want that to come from me, I want to support my adrenal glands, and I want to one day maybe enjoy an occasional cup of caf coffee.
I also think chocolate is rad and will let it come to play again, but right now it is serving as a crutch and undermining my goals.
This month I am letting go of chocolate and boy, does this make me sad.
And all I want is a cup of coffee.
Sometimes the short term goal is so very tempting.
So. Very. Tempting.
And sometimes you have to mute it's siren call and focus on the long term goal.
One decaf sip at a time.