human

Be Human

Sometimes I want to be perfect.

Sometimes I look at what I've accomplished in life and think I will reach a place where everything feels right. Where I feel like I have dialed in the perfect combination and I will feel a sense of contentment at all times.

Where I will feel connected to myself and the world.

And the world and I will hold hands and smile at each other. The end credits will play with a swelling back drop of poignant music and fade to black.

It doesn't go that way.

Life is a constant ebb and flow. Which is annoying, but you know what they say - if you don't feel the lows you won't appreciate the highs. I wish it weren't as true as it really, really is.

I experience moments of simple perfection like walking home after a good workout, feeling expended, feeling endorphins kicking, and looking at the beautiful world around me. I pause in those moments and think this is it. This is what it is all about.

Then I have other moments where something is just off. Nothing I can put my finger on, just a sense of not being connected. I will often try to trick myself out of it by doing something, by distracting myself... by something. 

But lately I have considered what if it is okay to be off?

What if that is part of human?

And obviously it is. I KNOW IT IS.

But. I often forget.

Facing the world is interesting. You see people in mere moments of their lives. Glimpses. It can seem like they are eternally happy in that moment. That they have it all figured out. 

But, there isn't a figured out.

The goals always shift and there is no perfect. There is no code to crack. There is just human.

And so, I will forgive myself for not being perfect.

For making mistakes. 

For being human.

I made a typo yesterday

Typos are lame...

...and somewhat unavoidable if you are me. 

My superpower is NOT proofreading. I fail at grammar and punctuation and my life is made better by spellcheck. 

Yesterday, my friend pinged me "Annette, did you mean to say 'BENG' versus 'BEING'?" 

No.

No I did not.

This typo was located in my newsletter, not on my site where such things are fixable. It was my first sentence, in caps, in bold, and when I realized I had made an error I felt the wash of embarrassment and the warm flush of shame.

But then I took a moment and thought about a couple things.

  1. Thing one. I'd rather be done than perfect. I preach the act of doing, starting, going, and building. In my world I'd rather create than create perfectly. Which means, typos are bound to happen. 
  2. Thing two. BRAINS ARE COOL! They fill in the gaps. I re-read my post a number of times and did not see the typo because my brain (tricky brain) was filling in the error. It is why we can still read this.
  3. Thing three. I got great feedback on my post. Another friend of mine read the content, enjoyed what I had to say, and didn't even mention the typo. Which means FLAWS AND ALL the message still got out. Which is a great metaphor for life ;)

So, yes, typos are lame. And yes, I will strive even harder to make sure they do not occur, but having them happen is human. Which means it is ok. Not everyone will agree with me, there are PLENTY of people that cannot hear the message when it is contained in a typo ridden case. And that is okay too. 

So, I'm curious, would you rather have perfect or finished?