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Food for the BRAIN

I remember one of my first jobs in Seattle -

I worked at a Tully's slinging coffee to the masses. One of my regulars was a Personal Trainer. She would always order an 8 oz Americano and we'd chat while I pushed buttons and pulled shots. The Atkin's Diet was back on the scene and we'd gotten to talking about the low-carb approach. I didn't know much about the diet, but scoffed at it on principle. I remember her saying, "Your brain needs carbs!" Yeah carbs! I agreed sticking staunchly to my eye-rolly disdain of anything low-carb. 

I had a lot of fervor regarding something that I knew little about. I should also mention that while my mind was screaming Atkin's = UNHEALTHY I had probably eaten half a bear claw and many many ounces of coffee and soy milk (because, you know, soy is healthy) and white chocolate flavor (because, you know, white chocolate flavor is... white chocolate). Point being - what leg was I standing on to judge anything? Answer: None. 

It is easy to get swept up in what is "healthy" vs. "not healthy". It is super easy to debate these viewpoints passionately with other people that will also debate them passionately, but what have you actually tried?

That is where everything gets interesting. 

In my last post I talked about what comes first the belief or the shifting of behavior. The answer for me was both.

I had to get to the point where I could begin to consider that carbs were not as necessary as I thought. Where I could look at Atkin's and other methodologies on the market objectively and where I could begin to experiment and try out different ideas, different plans, different thoughts and see what fit me.

That point came from me beginning to question everything. 

I had always been raised that LOW-FAT was the way. Carbs shmarbs HOW MANY GRAMS OF FAT DOES THAT HAVE? I didn't care how many chemicals a thing contained as long as those chemicals magically rendered the thing I was consuming fat free. And you know what? I was always hungry. See: here

And this threw the whole system out of whack. 

So... IF LOW-FAT was "the way" - then why wasn't I seeing success? 

I had a lot to learn, eventually I found out eating carbs causes you to crave more carbs. EATING FAT is actually what is needed for brain function. So I started to eat fat. And I started to eat protein.

And I started to get results. 

 

 

 

 

 

STOP.

About 6 maybe 7 years ago I was in a play.

It was a really bad play, but we had established an amazing sense of community. Our rehearsals were physical and long and we'd often bring snacks to share. It was around Easter and my FAVORITE in the whole world candy - ROBIN'S EGGS - were available. They are an amazing blend of malted milk ball and candy shell they just melt with such a wonderful sugary burst on the tongue - it is incredible. 

So these candies were there and I was NON STOP moving candy from bag to mouth. Oh the joy of mass consumption! After about 10 the joy was fading and the sickness was setting in, but I really didn't want to stop. WHY STOP? The pleasure of pure refined bliss was just moments away!!

I remember turning to a fellow cast member explaining this and he just looked at me and was like - "Annette. Just stop." 

HA. I thought, HA. I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW I SHOULD! 

But I really didn't feel like I had control. Their mere physical presence spurred me on. If they existed where I existed HOW WAS I TO NOT CONSUME THEM?! WHO AM I!? A FICTIONAL CHARACTER THAT MAKES CHOICES BASED ON HEALTH?? HA! SCOFF! HA!

Lately, I have been reflecting a lot on moments like this from my past and wondering what has shifted from then to now? What actually allowed me to stop?

Knowing I should stop, wasn't the thing.

Wanting to stop, wasn't the thing.

Having a logical understanding that 30+ Robin's Eggs is not the way to a trimmer waistline and a greater sense of wellbeing, also was not the thing.

I love the phrase "simple, not easy" and that pretty much sums it up. The way I got from point A to point B wasn't revolutionary, but it did take a lot of self discovery and a lot of understanding of what motivates my choices. 

Belief drives behavior which drives results - so what was I truly believing? And how could I shift that belief to be in-line with  my actual priorities? And how could I create an environment to support the results I wanted?

What things do you do that you KNOW you shouldn't be doing, but feel powerless to stop?

What are you actually believing?